I am still there....

Always on the run 
Chasing our dreams
We met each time -
Stood a while together
Among gaping crowds
Spoke, unspoken words
Yearning to share
Yet afraid, afraid Of ourselves
All around us

People cheering, leering
And we, like spectacles
Amidst all the madness
Trying to live a moment Of truth
A glance, a touch
A feeling to hold on to And move on…
The last time we sat together
Waiting for a flight
I remember I’d said,
‘There must be another way
Of living this life!’
For a long time You remained silent

Then,
Without blinking
Without turning
Said,‘There isn’t’
Today You are gone, and
I’m still running…
Still tryingTo prove you wrong . . .

No showers for VARSHA

VARSHA craves to fly
Married at 16; need wings to fly at 30

Its India - not the one where tall towers are touching the sky but the one where there is no electricity, water or food, not the one where woman are equal to  man earning big bucks and riding BMWs but the one where the birth of a girl child is still a boon, not the India where girls like me have a freedom to study subjects of my interest, earn and spend as much as I wish to but the one where females are doing the dirtiest of jobs just to get food, not the one where you fall in love, live the feeling for years and then marry when you wish to but the one where you are forced to leave your childhood games and play with your own individual self - a game where you are the puppet in the hands of so called destiny!

Mumbai- the commercial capital of India where mostly people come with dreams and then struggle everyday to achieve it. This city is full of migrants that usually relocate themselves from small villages and towns to earn their livelihood and support their families. All these migrants have their own stories - very unique and touching.

Varsha was born and brought up in a lower middle class family in a village of Maharashtra. Her parents struggled with all sort of jobs to feed their kids and give them education - if available. Yes, its not just about education for all, its about availability for all, as well. Most of the rural areas are still deprived of the so-called must have 'Literacy for all.' Campaigns and yojanas that we keep hearing all the time in all possible political agendas and plans are just heard not yet implemented. As soon as Varsha turned 16, her parents got her married to a man she never met or even saw. For her there were no choices, she was the eldest and had to leave so that her other sisters get married at the so-called right age. 

Marriage for Varsha was just a term and little did she know what this term had in store for her. She had to leave her small village and move to Mumbai as her husband had his job there. Unaware and unprepared she flew where the wind was blowing her. From village to city, from a big family to just one companion and from the freedom of living her childhood her way, she was now a married girl with a responsibility to cook, clean, feed and all that accompanied. The so-called destiny had molded her little self and she was learning, learning to be a woman from just a 16-year old girl.

Seven years of marriage, Varsha is now a mother of  five kids. Her husband works hard to earn a living but its getting tougher day-by-day. Forgetting the childhood and herself, Varsha now lives for her kids. She now manages full-house and five kids and that too with excellence but money is a problem. The tensions and scarcity of money has turned her husband into an alcohol-lover which brings on extra pressure on her. Her kids are never properly fed or given necessary medication which results to diseases like polio, typhoid, jaundice hovering on her house every now and then. She is trapped and wants to break-free from this net of sorrow. Day-by-day this feeling is getting stronger and she is becoming more and more immune to her own pain, all that she desires is happiness for her kids which is in proper meals, medication and education for them. Those little eyes are letting her see her own reflection - and she doesn't want them to go through all that life had in store for her. 

Varsha starts her struggle with getting out of the house and doing things that would get some food for her kids. She is a fighter and that's what life had made her. No job was considered bad by her and she did it all. This stage of life was her learning school and she excelled!

Varsha is now an oil-massager for new-born kids and mommies earning more than what her husband gets. Her husband too is placed as a driver in one of her clients house all because of her. She struggles the entire day, leaving her kids at home doing errands to get as much money as she can for the future of her kids. Her household conditions have stabilised and she is doing her best to give education to all her kids. Varsha is living the struggle that life had gifted her but she needs wings- wings to fly high just to gain that inner peace, just to live for herself!

P.S. Based on a true story seen, heard & felt from the main character herself!

Him...

She smiled, remembering his laugh, his stories, and their time together. Then she remembered him. She frowned.

D Dubai Diary

A wonderfully crafted city of infrastructural excellence - DUBAI has really won my heart! My stay of over 10 days in this beautiful city which basically was for the birth of my niece turned out to be really interesting....From spending time with my lil princess to exploring the city on my own, all of it was an experience to remember.

The only thing that was in my mind when I decided on the trip was Shopping - Loads and loads of it... But, these ten days turned out to be completely different from what I planned. Walking through the shiney, brand-full malls and the Dubai Creek, watching the sun go down the beautiful and never ending beach of Jumeirah, catching the stars in a moonlit night over the desert sky during desert safari… there’s so much more to Dubai.


Dubai is a juxtaposition of extremes – from being home to the world’s tallest tower to a marvel such as Palm Jumeirah, it's really a man-made wonder. It’s vibrant, well-planned and a growing city where people from all over the world are striving to make it a true international city. Modern technology is pitted here against absolute consumerism.

In Dubai you could enter the world's tallest tower and reach on top of the124th floor in seconds, sky-dive, take a camel ride, or zoom down in a land cruiser on the desert sand, have the world’s most expensive cocktail or dine in the highest restaurants in the world, swim with the dolphins or watch the sun go down sipping your drink from a terrace lounge in an expensive hotel, shop for the best brands from all across the world - All of the luxury well-defined just for you......

Each and every building in Dubai was a wonder in itself, the shape, size, the designs and not to forget was the lightning works on each and every one was just WOW.....Flashy cars, beautiful roads, huge malls, gold shine, musical fountain, good food ....its a long list!!!!!!!!


I also briefly touched on the rain in Dubai, which in itself is a wonder because it normally doesn't rain in Dubai as told to me by the locals. Well, the downpours and the thunder and lightning continued for the rest of the day starting from mid-night which made the car-drive to the city all the more magical especially the drive to Jumeirah beach.

I was in the city when UAE also happened to celebrate its 41st National Day. Therefore, I also witnessed the beautiful decoration and luring discounts in various shopping malls. :)


Apart from the marvels of infrastructure and shopping fun, I loved Dubai roads. Though the locals residing in the city find some of the rules and laws irritating, I appreciate each and every rule right from the strict driving laws to the security procedures. Some of the marvels like the toll-scan bridges really impressed me...wish we could have something like this in India :(

Loved Dubai and would definitely visit it for exploring it all the more!!!!!

Astrology has a history but it does not make history.

Astrology has a history but it does not make history. Rather I would say it doesn't make a future as well.

Now this is something that I strongly agree with-----According to Fr. Stanley Harakas, when we pay attention to horoscopes, palm readings, tea leaves, and the like, we deny both the Kingship of God and the fact that He created each of us in His image — complete with the free will to accept or reject Him by choosing to do right or do wrong. He did not create us to be victims of the stars. Astrology “is a denial the fundamental truths of the Christian Faith… [and] of the Christ-like way of living — something to be rejected as un-Christian!”

Trying to understand what so many Indians believe in without any proper understanding, I decided to research the same coz I believe in logic and not a trend. Finally reading a couple of articles, analysing the concepts and sayings, I stick to calling it all a nonsense and nothing else. 

I don't understand why are we humans so insecure about our own lives? Why do we need someone to tell us what we are and what's good and bad for us? Don't we have the capabilities and courage to pave a path for us which is the right path and that I would call is the path of God! Love God and not fear him... Why is there a need of all this nonsense of astrology and jyotish vidya which I guess  is surviving in our country is coz  we humans crave for a perfect life, loads of money, love and prosperity which is in short GREED FOR BEING PERFECT! That is the reason why we keep on running to these so called enlightened individuals every now and then to get some hope or a understanding of what's in store for us. 

I disagree to all this so called science of astrology...I live each moment of this life as mine with me on the drivers seat paving my own path....I don't need anyone telling me what I am and whats's in store for me coz its life and I am ready for all ups and downs coz I am God's child and I believe in just him!!!!

MASSAGES & More - All the more!!!

Just now I am missing something - in this strenuous day-to-day life... the general daily routine there has to be days which differ.....Now I am missing that day right at this point in time on my office desk after a heavy lunch...

My bones are craving for it!!!!!!

A day when I am instructed to lie, face down, on the massage table. The lights are dimmed, a mild 'aromatherapy' type, beautiful fragrance is sprayed into the surrounding air, the body is swaddled in soft, deep pile towels and the massage is ready to begin.

I can just feel it with my eyes closed.....

A hot compress is firmly applied to the base of the feet. The pressure shifts, smoothly, to the legs. The calves are kneaded, then squeezed, rubbed, gently thrummed until the resistance and stiffness start dissolving away.

A day when the human expert hands take charge and the body succumbs before a higher power.

As the process progresses from feet to calves, then knees and thighs, up through the back and neck to the crown of the head, the mind starts to seemingly disconnect from the rigid connection with the body and drift lazily away.


I am coming coming to that heaven soon !!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't be blind guys have faith in yourself!

After a long period of time, a bollywood movie has really made me proud. Umesh Shukla and Akshay Kumar good job :)

But more than appreciating them, I researched a bit on it to find out who was behind the original thought process of this story n presentation. Then I came to know that Oh My God is an adaptation of a play called Kanji Viruddh Kanji which itself is inspired by the Australian film, The Man Who Sued God.

So the pat on the back goes to the true originators but still I am very thankful to Akshay Kumar coz of him, I actually witnessed a movie that I so connect with. Every word, dialogue, drama each and every minute is what I truly believe in. Oh My God makes a compelling argument against the commercialization of religion, which is the main issue in Indian society. Yes it indeed is, we Indians are so degraded by this nonsense that our thought process has actually become meaningless. I am here not pointing fingers at anyone I don't know, but people whom I know and interact on a daily basis. Almost everyone goes to the rescue of religion in their own weird ways instead of facing the truth. It is really disappointing yet such a vast n never ending belief that sometimes pulls you away towards it on the mere number factor. My ancestors did so I am and will therefore force it on the coming generation too. It is just never-ending and amidst all this blind religious drama, movies like this gives such a relief to people like me. Yes I believe in God undoubtedly but not in religion!!!!!!N there is a huge difference here. 

OMG makes a solid case against blind faith, the excesses of religious rituals, and the self-appointed "collection agents" of God, and that's exactly what we Indians need to come out of...Faith is understood and accepted but not at the cost of truth.

What else can I say...go watch it and its highly recommended!!!!!!!